I actually typo'd blog at the top of the page to "blgo" while I was writing the title. I thought that word looked funny also, so I figured you all should know.
OK... engaging blog launch sequence.
Once again, I haven't blogged in a while, and once again, I'm going to say how I should do it more and that I will. I probably won't blog any more often, but since I've been making that particular false promise in every single blog... I figure there is no reason to break tradition.
There are actually a lot of reasons why I haven't been blogging at all. That is kind of what I am here to tell you all about! I've been pretty busy with work, physical therapy and all that jazz. The knee is recovering very nicely. I can walk with no issues at all now. I can jog into a building from the rain, which is more of a blessing than you think, especially with the way the weather has been for the last few weeks in the lovely town of Springfield. Work is work. There's been a lot of things happening on that front recently as well. So that has kept me busy. I felt like I had a lot more going on in my life that were keeping me so busy, but apparently there isn't. Wow, this whole paragraph just lost a lot of steam... moving on!
I've been feeling pretty restless lately. I love Springfield and the people I see every day but I just keep thinking that I'm supposed to be doing something different. I don't have the slightest idea what it is though. It's strange. I feel like I should have had all this stuff figured out by this point in my life. I feel a lot like I'm about 21 again and am getting ready to embark on this big journey we call life and have no idea what on earth I'm supposed to do with it. I haven't had a ton of purpose lately. Typing that just reminded me of the song "Purpose" from Avenue Q. Great song, great show.
I could go ahead and just keep doing what I am doing probably forever. My life is pretty great overall, but I just feel like there's something more that is supposed to happen. It seems that I'm just doing what I need to in order to be relatively happy and then call it good. I think I might be getting tired of that. I don't really have any reason to do what I'm doing. I have tons of friends with kids, families, bills, houses, cars, etc. that give them reason to do what they are doing. I think having those types of reasons adds a lot of purpose to what they are doing. I'm not at all saying that I want kids or a family or anything like that right now, I'm really far from wanting that type of a situation. I just would like to have a reason for doing what I am doing in my life. Bleh, it might not make sense, but that's how I'm feeling right now.
This blog took a sharp turn into depressing, self-introspection town and I'm sorry for that. I've just had a lot of people asking what has been on my mind recently, and this forum seemed like the best way to put it out there. I really do enjoy writing, it helps me organize my thoughts. It is also like having a conversation with myself about what I'm thinking. Griffey has to "run out" all his energy that he has from sitting in the house all day and my writing is how I mentally "run out" all this stuff that is swirling in my head. I write a lot more often than I blog but most of it doesn't make it to the blog because it's not all that interesting. Sort of like whats written above!
I'll be back to my normal blogging self soon. I just figured that I wanted to write about all this stuff and why not post it up for people to talk about if they wanted to. Funny stuff will be coming soon. I promise!
TLDR: I said one more time that I'll blog more, but I probably won't. I need some purpose in my life. I write things down instead of talking to myself. I'll be more funny next time, I promise.
See you all tonight at the Halloween party! If you aren't there, then we are fighting.
Thanks for stopping by!
4 comments:
First of all, I love you and you are literally one of the best men I know. Secondly, at least take comfort in the fact that you are not alone. For some time now - as you well know, I have been searching for more of a purpose in my life. I have yet to be satisfied in my career, which is extremely frustrating at my age... My career is supposed to be thriving! And, even though I have the significant other part finally figured out - we are far from settled and comfortable. I can relate EXACTLY to feeling like I should be 21 and just starting out with the road completely ahead of me full of promise. So, my twisted and biased take on everything is that I think our generation is simply late blooming. And that sounds totally cliche, I know - but we are the age of change and I dont think I would give it up. We are blessed with an amazing ability to adapt and alter any aspect of our lives without the massive amounts of worry and stress that our parents and grandparents would be forced to endure. We are the risk takers in the world - the ones who wont settle and so we find better, easier, and smarter ways out there. Ok - so that is OUT THERE and a little deep, but still true. I know that I can change jobs, move to a different city, and in general try something totally different and I will survive it all... hopefully with grace, dignity and a little style. Many before us have not, will not and simply cant take the risks... So, take comfort, my friend- that you are never alone and that while you might not be 21 anymore, the road is most definitely promising and can still be paved in greatness. And if you dont like whatever you try next - you can CHANGE it!!! LOVE YOU & sorry for the lenghy, deep comment.
I appreciate the lengthy deep comment. It's way too late to talk a lot about it tonight, but soon!
Well said.
Certainly. And I have faced it. We can communicate on this theme.
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